Stories about Linda

The stories about Linda really made me think. That could happen to anyone. A 9 year old girl weith cancer who has to wear a red cap just because she has little hair and stitches in her head. I couldn't even amagine if i were Tim what i would have thought at the age of 9. not knowing what is really going on. Not understanding that she might not live through this and that you may never see her again. I mean just the thought that he still thinks about her several years later and make's her come alive in her dreams kinda tells you how much she ment to him when he was 9. But now she is just a memory and the only way he will see her is if he dies. But i don't think thats gunna happen any time soon. Also Rat Kiely shooting himself in the foot just so he can get out of there. Is it really that bad that people are shooting themselfs just to leave? I would have never thought about that. Just because you are having nightmares and are going crazy with these visions of dead people. But thats what the war is about. Dead people. There is no way to escape it. once youv'e seen it, it will never leave your mind.

Kiowa's Death

Kiowa died today. he sunk in to the muck and died. All becaus someone turned on a flashlight so the enimies knew where we were. I don't blame anyone for what happened. We all did our best to try and find him and try to help him. I tried pulling him out of the muck but all that was sticking out of the mud was his boot. I tried pulling in it but his body didn't budge. The muck had sucked him under and wouldn't let go. Then later on we went on a search party for Kiowa's body. It took the boys awhile to find him, but they did. But what really got me was the fact that the man who turned on the flashlight to show Kiowa his picture of his ex girlfriend. He wasn't even helping them look for his body. He was to worried about looking for this ex girlfriends picture. When is reality it's kind of his fault for turning on the flashlight in the first place. Back in reality that was twenty year's ago. Now im back with my daughter Kathleen showing her where I fought. Later on our trip i went for a little swim and put Kiowa's mocasins. That is how we ended our trip.

Once Upon A Time

So as the days went on more people died and more stories were told. But most of the stories that were told were exaggerated. Most of the stories people told weren't exactly real. They all out their own little spin on the story to make it thier own and to make it more interesting. Like the story that Rat Kiley told about him shooting the baby buffalo, none of it really happened, he just made all of it up. But there was one story about Mary Anne that he told that was true.Mary Anne was Mark Fossie's girlfreind. He flew her out to our base camp, and i mean no ones girlfriend belongs in vietnam with her boyfriend. Thats just stupid and dangerous. But at the end he lost her, she turned out to become crazy and then she wandered in to the jungle and no one can seem to find her. they sent out choppers to look over the whole jungle but they never found her.

The Story Of Martha

Before I went to Vietman there was this girl, her name is Martha. She gave me letter that i carried with me. Altho they were not love letters, i wish they were. i wish she would love me like i love her. I would imagine us outside having a romantic date. But then i was always brought back to reality, the reality of vietnam. We carried a variety of things, somethings were things that we all carried and some were just things that we carried for comfort. As the days went on more people died, even Ted Lavender died. i blamed myself for his death. i sat in my fox hole and burned the picture's that Martha had given me. I realized that I needed to focus on what was infront of me instead of what was back in the United States.